Reflection, Refraction Or Just Relinquishments

The tides are changing, the wind is blowing strong in my face. The sun decides to set early and the moon is shining bright in the sky, way way earlier than when I had prayed it to rise. The winters have set in and yet the running scene in Mumbai has just started heating. The Holiday mood has set in and everyone is setting off to different destinations to bid their final adiue to the year on a happy note.

But for me looks like time has slowed down and it’s time for reflection. Time to thank for all the good that has touched me and to apologise for how withdrawn I have been this year.

The very talked about Joy Jar

 At the start of this year, I read about the concept of Joy Jar and I just had to make one. So excitedly, we found one empty plastic jar and colored it and for the first one week we would religiuosly write all our happy moments and put the chits in the Joy jar. Second week, every alternate day, third week: on reminders and slowly it faded out like any other fad that we picked up this year.

From Being a Mom to ‘Maa’

I have been blogging passively for the last few years and suddenly the realisation hit me that soon I will be 40 and all people will know of me is I am Mrs to my hubby and mom to my brats. Haven’t I been living with this identity for sometime? But formidable age is approaching and my hormones are making me panic. So I decided to give it a shot! I started blogging agressively, reading on forums, joining various FB and whatsapp groups, gathering any information possible and writing relentessly. Finally, it has paid off. It has taken a lot of hard work, ie from writing to PR, to posing at events, to social media promotions to learning the various aspects of blogging( photography, editing etc). I am suddenly not only mom to my kids but jagat ‘Maa’, but not the Radhe Maa types. Please spare me that comparison ;)!

Fitness is a destination

I am a super woman or so I want to believe. I want to motivate women to do more and since I am from the suspiciusly-misguided and totally misfit in today’s world school of thought, I want to lead by example. So one day I decided that only if women are fit will they relate more to my ideology and it will give them the energy to go through their day. So while initially I used to take my fitness routine a little casually, now when everyone is watching me I have become serious about my workout.

I am an Entrepreneur now

Another product of my over-active-panic-stricken-hormones. Since I was desperately looking to leave a mark of individuality, the moment I met these two spirited women with a vision, I shared with them a creative idea(by now I hope you know I am highly creative and brilliant ideas just keep springing but never see the light of day). So that is where ‘The Yogi Box’ idea sprouted. Even they don’t know how they got conned into it 😉 and I am already counting my millions!!

I have Vanished 

No I haven’t become ridiculously thin, but mentally just I am just not present.

With great power comes great responsibility

If only Spiderman knew how it will apply so well in so many situations. Not that I am a super power now, but my friends have decided, looking at me posing with various celebs that I am always busy or at every event that happens in town. Not their fault entirely, whenever they called me they felt like they were performing a monolgue at NCPA and the audience had slept off. My mind has always been preoccupied and now my mom’s calls have also reduced. My kids have to repeat themselves atleast five times to get me out of my daze.

Finally all aside, it’s time for reflection and to make resolutions for the New Year. While I achieved most of what I wanted to do this year, I have in the process forgotten birthdays, avoided parties, ignored my babies, missed my mom and distanced friends. It’s time to make amends, so here I end on a small note;

It’s that time of the year again 

when you gaze at the moon and reach for the stars 

You count your blessings and forgive enemies

and promise to make amends.

It’s that time of the year again 

when you look forward to bring in the new year

with all goals unaccomplished this year and more.

See you all in 2016!!